i feel grey !

I feel so grey , feel blue , even black mybe .
Much quez in my head like ,can i ? Should i ? This is real ? He's gone ? Seriouslly ? And muchmuchmuch more .
And i can't find the answ .
When i thinking bout my future , i see him .
Know i can't imgn bout my future , cos i scre i didn't see him .
I still love you ,verry verry fall for you .
Its like , you're sugar for my tea .
Without you ,my life is never sweet like this .
I miss you T :')